The happenings now

I realize that the last written blog I wrote was a bit harsh. I was in a very critical mood and I was thinking about things that had happened both in the past and more recently. I know that it is important to live in the now and not dwell on the past but sometimes it is just SO hard! I thought I would throw that out there before I started this post.

So, things are going pretty well at the moment. I ended my first year in college last term, and entered the beginning of my second this spring. I am plugging along steadily though kind of slowly, but I will get through this last year (or year and a half) and get my degree. I want to start life new. Supporting myself.

I am still living in Springfield, but was offered to move in to my sisters house within the next year after she moves with her family to Washington. I was super excited about this because she lives in Eugene and I HATE living in Springfield. Hopefully it works out for me.

Cain finally got tubes put in his ears to help relieve the continuous ear infections and has since has NO infections AND got over his seasonal raspy sickies SUPER fast. He is also SLEEPING THROUGH THE NIGHT! This is probably the best thing to happen in a very long time. I missed my sleep. (All 6 hours of it haha) Now, he is a very early riser, unlike his sister who would sleep all day if I let her, but that's ok. As long as we get 5-7 hours of uninterrupted sleep at night, it is MUCH easier to wake up at 6 or 7am.

Lily is at the end of her kindergarten year and is doing well. She seems to be doing great with writing but is needing some help with higher counting and reading a bit. I think that this is probably pretty normal, and she will do great in 1st grade. She ran in a Jog A Thon fund raiser for her school and raised $238! She ran 13 laps (around an 1/8 a mile track) in 30 minutes and didn't barely get winded! This summer I am planning on having her do a few weeks of day camp to meet some new friends and yes, keep her occupied. I have classes all summer so, she is likely to get bored.

So, that's the deal right now. If anything more exciting happens, I will post again! haha

Some recent pics of my kids.

My thoughts on Hypocrites.

I think that the most spectacular thing in the world (ok not the WHOLE world) is how it is completely natural it is for a human to be a complete hypocrite. I know that I am no exception to this rule. But I don't blatantly try to be the perfect example of the rule either. I know people who it seems, they go out of their way to be hypocritical. I think that if you're going to decide something is wrong, then you should think it is wrong for everyone, not everyone but yourself. If you think that it is wrong to cheat then it is wrong for EVERYONE not wrong for one person or a select few. If you decide it's totally cool and ok to lie, then it should be ok for EVERYONE. Not just you. In most of these situations, you can look at it as completely black and white with no gray or blurred edges. If it's wrong to cheat on someone (or cheat in anyway) then it is wrong. Plain and simple. That doesn't mean that it's totally ok for you to because of whatever lame reasons you come up with but it isn't ok for a friend or family member to because you decide suddenly you have some kind of moral code. Basically, if something is ok for you it should be ok for everyone, if it isn't ok for you, then it isn't ok for anyone else. (By your judging standards) You can't be like "OH well that was different circumstances" Or if you're going to be that way, then everyone else should be able to say the same. Yes, there are some situations that there are gray areas. But if you're going to allow gray areas for yourself. allow them for everyone else too. I just know that when I'm accused or condemned for doing something "wrong" and then realize that the same person that is doing the accusing has done the exact same thing but doesn't think they were wrong, it makes me angry (regardless if i did something or not. Because when I DO I take responsibility for my actions) I know that I have been a hypocrite in the past. But at least I can admit it and admit the things I have done, and take responsibility for them. I know plenty of people that accuse and judge that have done the same things they are judging that DON'T take responsibility and if they are confronted with it, they deny or make excuses. If you think I haven't taken responsibility for things I have done then screw you. It's not up to you to judge me or anyone else. I am my own judge and decide what I believe is right and wrong. Not you. Or anyone. If i decide something is right, then find out that maybe I was wrong about it, I can figure that out on my own, and be responsible about it. Because (this is gonna be corny) life is about learning from your mistakes and also your successes. Just remember the next time you accuse someone, or give someone "advice" that sometimes you should look at your own actions, and take your own advice.